21st birthday

Salam alaik...

28.08.08. Quite a nice date, don't you agree? Yeah, happy birthday to me. 21 years old, the final legal year. A year older, a year wiser, a year.. closer.. to death..

I am leaving my teenage year. or should I say I have left my teenage years? This is sad. I don't think I've make full use of my teenage years doing enough good. But at least, alhamdulillah, since the time I was choosen to be in the science class, sec 3.2, having GREAT friends, passing O-level, entering Pre-U, appointed as the president of ITMAWAT, passing A-level, went to Al-Azhar, appointed as an EXCO & Head of orientation, and continuing my 3rd year now... yeah, at least.. although I didn't excel in every single thing. But I know I could have done better, and I should have done more. I've wasted too many precious time. Gah! And you know what, I really believe that all these came from my mom's daily prayers, really! I don't know what I'm gonna do without her. Thank you mom.

I was given the opportunity to live in this world. I was given the opportunity to love and be loved. I was given Islam. I was given a home. I was send to a Madrasah and end up taking my B.A at Al-Azhar. 21 years of nikmah, alhamdulillah.

Anyway, this so called poem below was initially my birthday gift from someone I really care about, love, and is part of my life. Infact, it's one of the best birthday gift I've ever had. Even the writer herself, is the greatest gift that I can wish for. Thank you Nur'athifah Mohd Noor. I love you.

With him around I am someone
Makes me feel beautiful
Makes me feel that I am loved
That the world belongs to me

I will never say that I will forever be by your side
Cause we are so used to not having each other's company
I will never say that I will stand up a fight and defend you
Cause I am not physically strong myself
But I will never get tired of telling you how much I care
That you are someone special in my eyes
No matter what they say about you

To someone who is never fails to make me smile
Never fails to stop me from crying
Never fails to lift me up when I was down
Never fails to tell me that he loves me

There was one thing I kept asking
Why didn't God unite us earlier?
So that I could spend more time with you
So that I could love you more than today
But I just realised
Be it now or later,
I couldn't love you more than this
Because I have given all my love to you

I am really amazed
how strong the power of love is
I am more amazed
how meaningful this relationship means to me

I ever wondered
what would it be if you never came into my life
Will I ever feel this contentment?
Maybe I would
But it would be just, empty

I can't imagine myself without you
Yes, we are used to not having each other by our sides
But trust me,
I never will get used to not having you in my heart

Sometimes I ask, what did I do that I deserve all this?
Why did fate bring us together?
What would it be if we were still remain strangers till today?

You know,
I never fail to thank God everyday
For giving me such a wonderful person

It doesn't matter, now
You know it doesn't
For all you know, you are always reserved
in this tiny little heart of mine
Never will I let you cry
Never will I stop loving you, forever.

Thank you for the love, care, sunshines, days, moon, stars, chocolates,
and lots of chocolates.

I would like to thank all of you for your wishes and prayers. Thank you, I really appreciate it lots. Alf syukr.. sayang korang semua~ =)