Bismillah, Assalamualaikum wr wb.
It's funny I always have this feeling, where you wanted to really write something a moment ago, but when you have actually logged in and started typing, that feeling just went off, off to nowhere. Hah. But yeah, lemme just force myself and try.
Oh wow, it's been a while since I wrote here. This is very challenging, and awkward. Hahah. Ok here goes...
I am constantly having this dilemma where I have to face it daily. I am sure I am not the only one, but it is really disturbing me lately.
The thing with your niyyah, intentions. To even write this for His sake is already a challenge. To pray, work, eat, drink and live your daily life for Him... I am not even sure if there is anyone I know who is practicing this. Ok lah, maybe there's a few, can see from the way they speak and do things, maybe one or two I've met, but this is just me looking at his outer appearance, guessing, who knows what's inside. Wallahu'alam.
The point is... the point is, exactly! Just one or two! What ever happened to the rest...?
Working in mosque, an opportunity to be part of Mosque Religious Officers is such a blessings. Got to meet people of very masyaAllah background, those with high responsibilities, etc. But with such blessings I have also learned something else. And it’s not nice.
Maybe I am being very judgemental, and I know I should not be doing this. But really, I would really like... would love to... would hope to see more than these one or two, spreading their dakwah, with passionate, compassion, with love, with stories of the prophet s.a.w and touches people’s heart, touches my heart, who would be able to let this tears flows, understanding our beloved Messenger of God sacrifices. Who will push this heart, moving... craving for the love of Allah... Alhamdulillah, Alhamdulillah, there’s a few of them, but unfortunately, sadly, just a few.
And Alhamdulillah, I am very glad; these few are at a level where they should be. Guiding our community. Showing the true path for these lost soul. Me? Between me and them, it’s like millions light years of difference. But I will, and I must give them my full support, in any way that I could, I would.
The rest, seeing them speak in the name of religion, in the name of “saving the world with Islam”, and yet hurting others along their way, despise me. The idea that they bring, the idea to save mankind, to save Islam, I am all out supporting those ideas. But while doing that, neglecting the adab, neglecting your ikhwah fillah’s feelings, that is just too much for me.
Yes what some of our muslim brothers and sisters did was in some ways unacceptable, have caused too much damage, have contributed too much in destroying our deen, but there had to be another way, there just had to be...
All these made me wonder... are you really doing it for His sake? Looking at all the damage you are doing, I doubt so... Wallahu'alam.
All these made me wonder... are you really doing it for His sake? Looking at all the damage you are doing, I doubt so... Wallahu'alam.
I pray that Allah will have mercy on us, especially in this fitnah akhir zaman days. And you should pray too. Please, please please please include me in that prayer of yours. I would like to survive. I do not want to fail, no would not want that. Pray.
Ok enough with that. These dilemmas led me to this, sharing it with the world, anyway possible...
I have a lot more stories. I usually do. But whether I would share, that's another story.
Take care everyone. Take care of your iman, especially.
Pray for me, pray for others...
Wassalam.
