Salam, hi.You know what? as of today, I am more convinced with the fact that I have actually learned how to love not from where others usually did, but from those lovely people around me instead.
I don't know whether to grieve or to be glad. Ya 'Adl, You have taken away an essential part of my life which most others possess.... but You have also given me something that most others do not acquire.
There would be a time, when you ask yourself: "what made me as I am today?" and then you would think back and reflect all your histories, from your memories, everyone you've met. During these point of time, usually you'd feel nothing, you'd let it pass away, without any thought that it would become your history that will shape you and your future...
Sometimes I wonder. I don't know who to blame. Them? Me? for somewhile... And I then realized, oh no wait, no, there's none to be blamed. Semua itu aturanNya... Semua itu ketentuanNya. It should be obvious, understood. It should.
Ya Allah.. Redhakanlah aku dengan ketentuanMu... Redhakanlah aku dengan ketentuanMu... Amin.
Doakan saya, doakan semua.
Hari ini saya menyelami kembali sejarah kehidupan saya. Kini saya mampu mengenali diri saya dengan lebih lanjut. insyaAllah.
Alhamdulillah.
Allahu'alam.
